Have you ever spent the night debating the price of your dreams and aspirations... Cause that's all ive been doing recently. And its brought up some incredibly difficult questions that i havent beeb able to answer at all.

What happens if the cost of living out our deepest desires and passion is too much to bear? Do we give up? And what if this dream of ours can happen, but at the expense of those around us? Could we live with ourselves knowing that?

Sacrifice may be a vital ingredient for the road to success but ultimately I've come to realize that the true sacrifice can only be made because it's within our morals to allow them to be used. I don't think that I could ever sacrifice the happiness and peace in my family for anything in the world because I love them too much. But having to deal with the heartbreak of not realizing a dream that I've had for over a decade of my life.... It's truly an awful feeling. A heartbreak of an entirely different level.

Yet, I've recently also come to experience comfort in the sorrow that I've been going through. My suffering & problems are but an indication of my humanity and my ability & want be a good daughter; least the best one I can strive to be.

I can say that my grades for my a levels were nothing but reflective of what effort and time I had spent on it. Teaching drama and MJC the past few weeks has taught me a lot, though thats another revelation for another day. But at the end of the day, I've realized that our options are only as limited as we make them out to be... I'm expanding my horizons. & I'm going to take my time to allow myself to grow into a citizen of the world that my parents are proud of.

I will become someone that I am proud of. I feel that I'm growing up bit by bit, and boy is it a glorious feeling.

"isn't it great to know a lot, and a little bit not." - Red Riding Hood, 'Into the Woods'

Xxxx Kim