I know I just had a trip to see animals yesterday and I should really be posting pictures of them but I felt this was more important. I will post the animal pictures up soon though; am quite proud of some of the shots.

My trip to the zoo with this bunch of crazy, wacky, amazingly chilled group of people really made me realise how fortunate I am: to have such wonderful friends to share amazing memories with. Honestly, yesterday's trip to the zoo was probably the most un-artsy related fun that I had all year... & that's saying a lot. I got to really go crazy with my photos & I had a blast. I was reminded of what it was like to be excited over things like animals & orangutan stirrers. I felt youthful and alive... something I kinda ditched the moment I passed my orientation days. Let's face it, as much as the school has allowed me to grow, I realised how much I've missed as well.

I mean, I spent practically the entire day snuggled up under the duvet in my cold room with my newly acquired friend, Mambo. Mambo is a soft-toy King Penguin who I've fallen in love with and I am prepared to admit that I had a conversation with him too... something I haven't done in years. It's childish and perhaps juvenile on so many levels but it was so comforting. I've been so caught up with trying to be sensible & remotely successful at life that I've forgotten what it's like to indulge in these rare childish refrains. I remember what it was like to cry to my softtoys as a girl; to confide in them, showering them with love & soft whispers of my 'deepest' secrets. I loved every single moment of it. I miss being that innocent young girl. As strange as it may sound (considering I'm only going to be 18 in 3 weeks), it's really been a long time for me. Having to grow up really quickly from a young age really has it's pros & cons.

Besides that, I've touched base with my muse & also made a new friend. Reconnecting with Ben has been one of the best things thathas happened to me over the last 6 months... That man is truly one-of-a-kind. Spending time with him opens up so much for me, it's filled soul-bearing moments followed by just pure happiness in the music we revel in. I feel almost intoxicated with emotions that I've forgotten or lost. It's a friendship that never ceases to give me hope and love. And I'm not afraid to be mushy about it. He's an amazing man who inspires me to the very core. I wish I could be half as apt as him in displaying my emotions in writing.
He's made me want to write again...
It's really something.
He's really something.

I really am in no position to complain about anything much to be honest..
& at this point, I can truly say:
I'm content.


                       "Go easy on yourself..." he said.