Some crazy shit Sunday.
Monday morning, Serena flying off to Boston.
About 7 hours to be exact :(
Unwritten work remains a problem with me.
I'm truly progressing at a rate that is befitting a wretched snail.
I find myself losing any sort of cool or sensibility when I have a social life.
I reckon my new resolve is to steer from anything that may resemble one.
Shouldn't be too hard really.
On an entirely irrelevant note,
I think that our humanity is pretty much headed toward destruction cause we'll probably end up killing each other before the environment can truly crumble in on us. And new reports on such things have truly affected me. In addition.. things have been a constant up and down for me. Not that comforting at all...
Downside (Format reminds me of a UN resolution) being that the world is getting more complicated with each damn hour and with the constant behaviour of our race(the human race that is) being to bloody atrocious towards everything else that is not them. It's come to the point that I'm just torn in my beliefs. I really don't know what to think anymore.
And technically, I'm in no position to critique and complain, yet, I feel like I should.
But really, what difference would that make?
Upside, I've discovered Wong Fu Productions along with David Choi on Youtube and I am truly inspired by their passion and dedication. And I've become extremely envious that their lives virtually revolve around what they love. I'm still battling with the notion that I won't even make it to the U! I'm becoming weary of my decisions in life and my true beliefs. I'm worried about trying to sort things in life out, let alone to try change the world. Sometimes I wonder whether I deserve the life I have.
In addition, the topic of love, marriage and settling down has been brought up a fair bit.And it's not exactly all roses and happy thoughts majority of the time. I'm honestly pretty damn negative about all those 3 at this point in time... as a personal thing of course. Not hating on any of it really, just me having the notion that I need to remain.. well, realistic.
Enough rambling.
Don't suppose anyone actually reads this page anymore. ha.
So much going on in my mind, I can barely sleep.
Bring me back to shanghai please?
I find myself done with everything.
xxx kim