I think that the concept of trust in my family has been flushed down the toilet bowl recently. Talks of spotchecks and all these talks with my mum about different things, it's got me raving mad i swear.

It really is quite bad enough that I'm stressed in school but to have it at home too, the place i'm supposed to rest and recover, i don't know how much further i am from a mental breakdown. Not saying that things at home are ridiculously bad, just it could be better you know? Thank god for my sister, she's the only one in the household who doesn't talk to me like i'm a little girl. And now my mum wants to make the only other thing keeping me sane a source of worry too? I'm just so bloody fed up.

Rawr, least that is aside.

I haven't blogged in a while really and I just thought I might do a little update on what's going on. I'm now in dance exco as the dance coordinator together with Nic... and today, we held our first conditioning. I personally felt that I could have done so much better but I'm determined to be better... So, I'm sorry to them dancers who felt today's conditioning was not up to normal standards... We're aiming to get there. Meanwhile, your feedback is welcomed.

Just talking to Brad right now, it's been a while since I've been in touch with my mates from Shanghai, and honestly, my emotional state this past week or so has been so raw. Talking to Lexi, Purvi, Lollo and Jodi the past few days has dug up memories I miss to dearly.. and recently, I find myself yearning for my Shanghai life again. It might not have been as productive and fulfilling as time now in Singapore but... I just felt so much more at home with them.

I feel like i'm being forced to bear it all out because of the things that have been occurring simultaneously, not giving me ample time to recover before hitting me with the next wave... I honestly feel like I'm drowning. But, thankfully there is a sign of hope... it's a small beacon of light but at least it exists.

Well, I do apologise in advance for any future emo-sort of posts.

Hopefully it's a phase I can overcome. I love you guys.
And here's a shoutout to Gabriel, Asyraf, Khai, Adeeb, Valerie, Sal, Lenart, Serena, YeeYee, Eva, Dominic, Rayan and A12.. thank you for being there for me through these past few weeks and for putting up with my insane moods. I love you guys.